Confidence

I have never been one to be overly confident. A lot of people think I am but it is just me not letting anyone know that I am insecure and lacking confidence. I had an Algebra test yesterday and I was freaking out! I studied and went and saw my friend Karen to help me understand the stuff I wasn't sure of and I freaked out. When I got to class yesterday the teacher started going over what was going to be on the test and all the rules. I thought I was going to throw up. As the teacher passed the tests out my heart was in my chest and I thought I was going to have a panic attack. A panic attack over an Algebra test? Yup.....my true lack of confidence rearing its ugly head. I looked at the test and got going. I went over that test 3 times and took it to the front of the class to my teacher. He grades our papers while we sit there in front of him and I couldn't breathe. I got a 105 on that test out of a possible 110! I didn't miss anything on the test and I am kicking myself for missing that extra bonus question. I could barely walk back to my chair because my legs were so shaky. I was excited and relieved all at once. Why don't I have more confidence in myself? I even told my English Comp teacher that I am not a good writer and that I look forward to learning how to write in her class. I have gotten perfect grades on all my papers so far in her class. When am I ever going to learn that I am smart?

Life here has been generally crazy and Chas and I never see each other. He works Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday night and I have Law class on Wednesday night. Friday nights are our nights to be alone and do what we want and then Saturday is Soccer and Algebra Class. We get Sunday together and that is about all we see each other. We pass each other for a few minutes a day. The kids are being good which is nice and poor Catie has learned that when a certain screen is up on my computer to leave me alone that I am doing school work. She is doing well in soccer and school and I am very proud of her as she continues to blow my mind with the stuff she is learning in school. They are working on multiplication in the 2nd grade! We didn't do that until 4th grade! She has gotten a 100 on all her spelling tests and near perfect scores on her math. Today's youth has a lot of pressure on them to do well and learn quite a bit at an early age.

Charlie is starting to really crawl but still not sleeping through the night. He did pretty well last night but still woke up once or twice. He gets prettier everyday and is almost as tall as Max was at a year old. He is a big boy!!

Max is talking up a storm and has tested at a 36 month level and we are thrilled! A year ago he was testing at a 6-9 month level!! We have some of the best conversations now and he loves music! We listen to Charlotte's Web soundtrack in the morning on the way to school and he knows the words to Chin Up!! I love the way he says Ipod. He is starting to really get a grasp on counting and will go "1, 2, 3, 7, 8, 7......GO!" and makes us laugh every time.

All in all life is good and I feel very blessed right now. I hope the kiddos continue to behave!